Being realistic

Today I'm feeling that there's just no chance this cycle will result in a pregnancy. There's just so much working against it:

- Embryo growing slowly so it was only at the early blastocyst stage

- My age and the very low chance of success with every transfer (around 5%)

- Doubts about whether my endometrial lining was actually thick enough

I feel now more than ever that we are nearing the end of this IVF journey and getting ready to stop for good. Yesterday Dr D talked about a new drug - DHEA, that can help improve the quality of eggs and embryos. Rather than feeling excited about something new to try, my first thought was that I just don't want to go down that road and give ourselves false hope. I think if I'm feeling this instinctively, then its time to stop.

But I will get the papers from her and have a look. Maybe I'll feel differently in a few weeks. I feel like we are just going through the motions with IVF at the moment, and don't have any genuine belief that we'll succeed. Its not a bad thing, and I don't feel worried about it, just being realistic. But maybe its time to move on with life and start planning new things, instead of being in this constant limbo.