Day 9 post transfer - a small glimmer of hope?

Today is 9 days past embryo transfer and 14 days past ovulation and I still don't have any signs of AF.

I know this isn't a bad thing, but can I take it as a positive thing? I really don't know. I've been googling again, as it seems every woman does in the two week wait, and it seems the consensus is evenly divided as to whether progesterone pessaries keep AF away or not. In some women, they still get AF regardless of whether they are taking progesterone, and in some its delayed.

I know that in stimulated fresh IVF cycles and in medicated frozen cycles, the progesterone is absolutely necessary to keep things going because your body doesn't make progesterone itself if ovulation doesn't occur.

But I'm in a natural cycle so the progesterone pessaries are just a 'nice-to-have' rather than a 'need-to-have'. My own endogenous levels of progesterone would have fallen by now but what I don't know is whether the progesterone from the pessaries is enough to keep AF away. Oh well, who knows?

It would be nice not to obsess about this but I am only human and wondering what is going on this close to the blood test is to be expected I guess. This morning I bought a pregnancy test in preparation for Thursday morning so that I will know the answer without needing to wait for the clinic to call. I'm really not tempted to test before then because I don't want to get a negative on the home test and be really disappointed only to find that the blood test comes up positive.

I spoke to a friend last night and she said it was really disciplined of me not to test now but really I'm just trying to avoid unnecessary disappointment.

So all in all, I feel slightly more positive than negative about this cycle. I'm trying to focus on the feeling that this whole journey will be over in two days, one way or the other. And that is going to be a huge relief, even if the test comes back negative.